Finding Inner HappinessWell its Wednesday again and I have gone a WHOLE week without weighing myself. THIS IS HUGE, like Super large bowl of popcorn huge! I can't tell you the last time I have gone this long without weighing myself on PURPOSE! Obviously those times when you just give up and "let yourself go", seriously what the Eff does that even mean...let yourself go? Obviously you don't LET this happen, because most of us seem to wake up and hate being miserable without realizing the path to destruction we have led ourselves down. I haven't weighed myself this week and I am going to go another week! Why because I haven't one time this week felt like giving up, I know this is what I need to do and I KNOW it needs to happen now, not tomorrow, not next Monday, not next month or year...NOW. I am tired of saying tomorrow or "Ill start Monday". We all know that doesn't always happen and why do you really need to wait a whole week to "start" being healthy. I have learned to go meal to meal, hour to hour. If I slip up on lunch then I am really careful the rest of the day! I am amazed at how far I have actually come.
I am on track with week 2 of C25K, and let me tell you after yesterday I could NOT wait to get outside and RUN my butt off! Even if it was a little chillier than I prefer, I didn't care yesterday. Today I am hoping to make it through the ENTIRE 45 minutes of TurboFire "Fire40". It's way hard, but I can do this!! I am so grateful for "weigh in Wednesday" its helping to keep me accountable as well as meeting some amazing woman who are going through this same journey!
I am tired of trying to find happiness in clothes. I love clothes don't get me wrong and I LOVE fashion, but why do you think I have a shoe addiction? Well because shoes ALWAYS fit, even when the super cute jeans you want are too snug or that button up isn't even an option because your tata's are too big! Shoes make me feel happy, until its deflated because I look in the mirror. I know now that my weight has never been the problem. It has been me this whole time. I have been searching for happiness in skinny girl clothes- that doesn't make you happy! However, knowing that I will get to a point and be able to rock ANYTHING I want without having to worry about size will be an amazing feeling. I work on myself daily not including food and fitness ( but fitness is such a great therapy).
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